| | Disappointments are inevitable as long as there are expectations. The higher the expectation of something or someone, the bigger the disappointment will be(or at least a higher chance of a big one). Recently, I've been plagued with disappointments in 2 places: school and at work.
School:
Since I've started studying at the college almost 3 years ago, I did not expect to make any friends. It's the type of school where people go in and out of different classes at different times according to their own schedule and needs. Even so, I can say that I've made friends(those that are still friends and some that are not anymore) and I'm grateful for that.
Just like any other previous semesters, I did not enter this semester to make friends. I've been in this school for far too long and I feel that I need to quickly get through my credits in order to transfer out. With that said, I did not consider person A as my friend at all when she approached me before class during the second week into the semester. Not even when she asked for my email to search for my profile in FB later (She couldn't find me in the Search anyway since I disabled it).
The first thought that popped into my head when she came up to me for the first time was, "What does she want out of me?". My initial response may seem cold to some people, but I've been used/trampled over/taken advantage of in the past by so-called "family" and "friends". I could tell that she was not genuine in becoming my friend.
Judging from my interactions with person A up until now, she has never showed interest in whatever I say apart from the answering her questions to me. Whenever I elaborate further on my answers, she starts tapping and playing with her cellphone with a bored "Uh-huh". From these conversations, she's only an acquaintance in my eyes.
However, I got really sick for the past two weeks and refused to see a doctor while going to work and school like I usually do. I bought and took medicine from Walgreens. These usually works, but it didn't work much this time. I was coughing so badly that my whole body shakes with each cough. For that 2 weeks, she seemed to show concern for me and nagged me to see the doctor.
Her "concern" got me thinking that maybe I've passed a judgement on her a little too fast. Maybe her lack of listening skills was because she's still getting use to socializing as she had told me before that she used to be very shy. I still do not consider her a friend, but I decided to give her a second chance.
Guess what?
She totally blew her second chance with me. Yesterday morning before class, she asked me if she can borrow my notes. I got suspicious and replied that I've not studied for the test, which is to be held tomorrow on Wed, so I need my notes. She immediately panicked and asked if I was free the next day, to which I replied that I had to work. I told her to just read the chapter reviews at the back of each chapters since she seemed so desperate. Her response to that raised a red flag to me. She dared to say, "That's too much work".  Are you fucking serious?!
However, I sympathized with her and lent her my notebook for 8 minutes before the class started. When I snuck a peek at her notebook while she was copying down my notes to it, it was bloody empty!  What the heck has she been doing in class throughout the semester so far?! Did she think that she will be able to pass this class with no notes at all?!
I could totally understand if she was sick or missed a class or two because of that, and needed notes from the classes she had missed. But she was freakin' copying the notes from the very beginning of my notebook!!! I couldn't believe that she had the audacity to do that!!!  I was bloody sick for 2 bloody weeks and yet, I still bloody attended classes, so that I would not miss any notes!
Were you sick?! Were you coughing so badly that your whole body shakes and make you nauseous?! Were you blowing your nose so frequent that your nose peels and hurts?! Did you have a headache throughout the whole day for 2 weeks straight? Are you working many hours while still going to school? NO! And yet, you had the audacity to ask notes from me two days before the test. The notes that I've painstakingly earned. 
It won't kill you to write notes while you're in class. That simple task is not as arduous as you think, especially when you weren't sick and definitely not disabled.
Person A,
Apart from the fact that I am disappointed in you, you disgust me too.
Work:
I won't go into details about what or who disappointed me in terms of work, since I might get in trouble for that. However, I'm heavily disappointed with the company and a certain people. Why would you bother to have a policy in paper if your employees are not protected by it in reality? I believed in and admired your mission statements, but some of the people that you hired from outside to high positions in the company are not following them. Who suffers and becomes the sacrifice for these people? The employees who have no authority, nor the voice over it.
Ugh. Talking about these kind of people leaves a bad taste in my mouth.
Over and out,
P.S. On a happier note, my lil bro has moved back into Bay Area!  Yay!
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